Monday Musings, Being a parent with chronic pain

Being a parent, with chronic pain, is the hardest job I have ever had.
This weekend, had Elliot in town, and I spent half of Saturday in bed with a migraine, and part of Sunday in my recliner with my right arm numb or cramping.
Yesterday, Oswald crawled through a tight space to get away from me while playing, so without thinking I just crawled right after him and hurt my hip and both my knees.
So hard sometimes, when the pain is raging, to not lose control and scream at the children. The pain removes all the filters you build up as parents, or at least makes them super thin and easily breakable.
There is pain medication, but it's expensive and I easily become dependant on it just to survive. There's alternatives like CBD, but that also costs money that I just don't have.
I try so hard to be a good level headed Dad. I try so hard to not let them see me suffer too much, and to not let the pain affect how I treat them. I try so hard to be the model parent they need me to be. I just hope it's working.


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